Depressed and Derailed

Yesterday has been the Worst Day for me.

I had to attend a meeting at an Arby's over some "social autism" thing that I don't really understand.

and, enroute to that,  I had to pick up some Meds for my mom, and some jerk lady on a cellphone CUT in font of me!!


Let me tell you..I was mad about such rudeness.
So mad, I fact. that, I wasn't too cheerful during that Meeting.

Mom didn't like how I behaved, and has since taken my computer away from me.


Here is where it gets real bad. I actually DO agree with her that I wasn't on my best behavior.
but, despite how many times I apologized..Mom continue to Yell at me.

calling me a "Selfish and Greedy Spoiled Brat"
and, citing she probably SHOULD have been "beating my ass" like her own dad did to her.


I'm going to be honest..Last Night, I CRIED.
because I'm Really not sure if mom loves me or not.

Because the whole time she never accepted my apology.
she yelled and screamed at me more than usual,
said thing that she KNEW was hurtful, and didn't seem to care about my tears.


I'm feeling really depressed, now (and, I mean REALLY depressed.)
like: If a speeding truck hit me while crossing the street, I don't think I'd care.


I need to find a way to escape this. I'm not sure how much longer I can take all this!


So, I am without a computer for who knows how long.
Until I get it back (or, work on buying one for myself) I am stuck using Library computers for awhile.


(So, my updating speed has been derailed significantly.)


Hopefully, things will improve..but, I'm not really sure.

This feels worse than the 'MLP Comic Book' Incident.



                                                                           -MetroXLR99